On the one-year anniversary of my Hashimoto's diagnosis, I'm homeless, jobless, car-less, and blissfully happy.
I'm celebrating my anniversary today! One year ago today my doctor looked up slowly from the lab reports, put her hand over her thyroid in her throat, and said to me: "Your body is attacking itself, love." Until that moment, I'd never heard of Hashimoto's. I've since learned it's an autoimmune disease that attacks the thyroid, crashes the adrenals, triggers intense anxiety and relentless brain fog and chronic fatigue and a litany of food allergies and and and... the list goes on. The diagnosis made so much sense and it validated everything I'd been living with for years and years.
I knew instantly, sitting right there in the doctor's office, life as I knew it was over. In the best possible way.
My career was no longer joyful. I was no longer joyful. I barely recognized myself. My health was clearly suffering. I knew I was misaligned from my soul and that misalignment was manifesting in my body. When my doctor put her hand on her throat, I clearly understood, metaphysically, that I wasn't speaking my truth. From that moment forward, I began completely de-constructing and re-constructing my life. On my terms. In a way that supports my spiritual and physical health.
Over the course of the past year: I took a medical leave from work and lost 85 lbs. I patiently learned how to manage my disease and take loving care of myself. Even though I'd dedicated 15-years to a successful career in higher-ed, I was done. I've since quit my job, owned the identity of an entrepreneur, and launched my location-independent business. Last night I drove away from my condo one last time, after handing the keys to my tenants. This afternoon my Subaru drove away with a happy new owner. I ruthlessly purged my possessions and stagnant energy (including setting fire to ex-boyfriend photographs and letters in a sweet sweet release). I've sold or donated nearly everything I own. My life now fits in a nitro green 46L Osprey Porter backpack. I once lived at Sephora, now I live at REI. I've geeked out about travel gear. I've researched long-term, solo female, international travel blogs ad nauseum.
Oh and I've booked a one-way ticket to Bali. You could say it's been a good year.
This past year has taught me a few hard-fought lessons. Please borrow as needed:
I am worthy of my desires. I am worthy of health and happiness. I am neither selfish nor irresponsible for following my vagabond dream.
I am magical. I am wild. I am supple. I am luminous. No more turning down the volume in order to make other people comfortable.
Everything in this world breaks down to love or fear. Period. Something is either coming from love or fear. Love expands and fear contracts. Love is aligned to your core self. Fear is a detour and often just excitement without the breath.
You can fire doctors. You deserve to be well. Only you know what's going on with your body. Fight for the clarity you need.
If something (or someone) doesn't light you up, turn you on, or bring out your best self, you're allowed to leave. Please leave.
Retirement is a racket, man. Working yourself into a state of chronic misery and illness...only to cash out and take the few vacation you have left in you...is utter bullshit. Life is meant to be lived; it's far too gorgeous and short for that noise. Live from a place of love and do what you need to do to be happy and healthy. Even if that doing means tapping into your retirement at age 34.
Eat whole foods.
From day one of my life, I owned too much shit I didn't need. I promise, you too could donate even just 35% of your stuff right this minute and never miss it. You are not your stuff, but physical stuff does hold ego and energy. So if you want to bring fabulous energy and wealth and happiness and health and love into your life...where is it going to go?
The Universe will rally behind your desires, so get clear. Once you're in the groove of a divine flow, you're unstoppable. Find that groove and ride it out.
You can do hard things.
Love + adventure,
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